In a teamwork environment, I take things personally. Way to personal than others do. I like and willing to pursue the feeling to be in a (then) successful group. I believe this kind of attitude/model leads to success.
Then it had become a problem. Since most of people I encountered didn’t feeling that personal to teamwork success, they refuse to do more than “finishing” the job. They done their share of the work only, or even MIA, leaving (people like) me to handle it.
Put it in Chinese with popular metaphor: 我只是在當好人，然後你們在消耗好人就是了。
Maybe it’s our problem, you know? To live a miserable life all the time when team up with others; to do things alone; to be the last one to turn off the light. The model is wrong, so wrong that I couldn’t take it anymore. I should stop being that personal to things, and make myself clear that I am not covering one’s ass.
Anyone who reads this post, please – see if you are consuming someone in the group/team you think you “belong” to.
Seeking other positions to be in a teamwork now – but it’s just sad to see groups I once believed in to fail and fall apart.